I am a natural magician/psychic. Odd things started happening to me when I was a toddler. I always knew there was such a thing as magic, but didn't know that it had been the focus of thousands of years worth of study. I made this discovery and started my own studies in earnest at the age of 12. By the age of 14 I was thoroughly disenchanted with the hypocrisy and lies of the Christian church and renounced my affiliation. I went through a brief stint in Wicca and discovered much of the same hypocrisy and brainwashing, which pushed me further toward the fringes. By 16 I had declared myself a Satanist. (D&D led me to it, just like they said it would!) I joined the OTO in 1994 and made rapid progress toward understanding the mysteries. I held various positions of responsibility within the TO, and in 2000 I was ordained a priest of the EGC.
Me at 5 yrs
I was a handfull!
Dear ol' Dad
However, around that time I began to be disenchanted with Ceremonial Magic and heirarchical magical orders in general. The whole design of magical orders seems to be flawed, and CM is simply an attempt to intellectualize the Mysteries, and thus distance oneself from the source. I began my experiments with other forms of induction into the magical state, rhythmic drumming & dancing, psychedelic drugs, sex, S&M, meditation. This has opened many doors for me and continues to reward my efforts at exploration richly. I have become more and more convinced that those of us pursuing this path are on the verge of tapping into a primal power known to our ancestors, but since lost.